CHASING REFLECTIONS
Longing, lust, and the slow learning of discernment
Longing rarely announces itself as hunger.
It arrives as recognition.
As charge.
As the feeling that something meaningful is happening….
I wrote Chasing Reflections because I wanted to understand why certain connections felt inevitable, why intensity was so easily mistaken for truth and why desire so often asked me to leave my body in order to feel alive.
This work isn’t about who we chase.
It’s about what chasing does to the nervous system.
It’s about how attention becomes the elixir.
How distance sharpens desire.
How reflection can feel like being seen, until it doesn’t.
What follows is not advice.
It’s a series of recognitions.
If you’ve ever felt lit up by something that couldn’t stay…
If you’ve ever confused longing for intimacy…
If you’ve ever called the ache “chemistry” because it felt better than calling it hunger…
You’re already inside the question this work is asking.